Wednesday 4 December 2013

Rizzle my Kicks

Helloooo you beauties:) So today I'm going to tell u a cute little story about avoiding people who actually might change your life for the better. Ill try not to blab on and apologies if I do;)

A few months ago I decided to give up trying and avoid a certain person. Sounds pathetic really- about to be 16 and still having catty little fights with people. Well a girl in my year and I have always had our differences which we worked out quite a few years ago and so have been pleasant and civil towards each other for the sake of everyone around us.

Last year we were uncomfortably pulled together due to sharing the same drama group chosen by our teacher- forcing us to spend many hours both inside and outside school working together. To cut a long story short- we rediscovered our differences and things within the group did not work harmoniously. It resulted in complete avoidance the minute our performance exam was over.


This girl and I are both in our school chamber choir and yesterday we had a rehearsal at lunch time- once it was over we had to grab lunch in the canteen and found ourselves the only two people in our year going in at that time. We didn't blink twice at each other and sat down like two average schoolgirls eating lunch together. When I got up from that table however, I swear to the lord that I was and now am a completely different person. It simply never occurred to me that there can be so much that you don't know about someone whom you think you have summed up pretty well.

We spoke about everything. Everything that was happening in our lives and some little troubles. Some of you may know that I can easily open up my entire soul to someone who will listen and that's what I did. Little did I know that the girl sitting in front of me actually knew from first hand experience exactly how I was feeling and some of the things that I've been through over the last couple of years.This girl and I discovered that beneath our differences there were actually more similarities between us.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that we should really be careful about some of the people we push away- I know if I had spent more time with this person then I might have not had to deal with quite as much as I have ALL by myself since there actually are people out there who will know what you are going through- you just have to find them.

I'm not saying this girl is going to now become my best friend etc. but I know that I am so glad to have righted our wrongs and discovered someone that actually understands something which I have been unable to put into words for years.

 
I think something really important that we need all to remember is to try and do things for other people. There's a chance as humans, we can struggle with this from time to time so at least do the right thing- for your soul not your head. As gay as it sounds my soul kind of needed to someone to understand what I was feeling as beforehand it felt like I was almost wandering into open space.



 Thank you for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day full of sparkles and sprinkles:)))

Monday 18 November 2013

You're a star, so twinkle!

Hi all, sorry haven't posted in a while have been weighed down with course work:(
but here now!:))

So some of you may already know that I suffer from low self esteem- this isn't something you choose to have or something that your fake for attention. Low self esteem is either the result of something happening to you in your life or something which you have developed naturally over a period of time. This is where you aren't comfortable with yourself whether you hate your appearance or just lack self confidence.

 Basically the only thing you can do is learn to love yourself ...(as cheesy and corny as that sounds). Whether you are really insecure about your body, think your useless at everything or just simply really shy and nervous about talking to people then you just need to boost your self esteem!:)
First things first, you need to believe that you can do it. Whatever 'it' is. If you don't believe in yourself then who else is going to believe in you? You need to have the confidence that YOU can achieve your dreams and trust me, you will get there.
A few nights ago I heard a really inspiring speech from a medal winning paralymipan which really really inspired me. It taught me a huge lesson that it doesn't matter what you look like or what life throws at you, you have to pick yourself up and battle through. So maybe you might not look like a super model but no ones perfect!? There will ALWAYS be someone that is prettier than you or better that you at history or more talented at you at singing or whatever it is, but you have to see them as a challenge, a competition for you to prove that you yourself can do your best.

If you can believe that you are fabulous in your own lil' way then you will truly do amazingly at whatever it is your doing because if you have tried your best at something then you should be proud of that. Thank you for reading, hope you have a gorgeous day full of cheekiness and grins.

Saturday 2 November 2013

1 song triggers 1000 memories

 
 
 
Hi there, I hope you are all well:) I was speaking to a friend earlier and they know me quite well and sent me a link to this song, saying the first few lines reminded them of me. I thought it was going to be some joke or something but I listened to the lyrics and began to cry. Yes I cry a lot but this really really hit me with feeling. The words I've been feeling for months but never been able to say. 
 
 
Retrograde     -James Blake
 
You're on your own
In a world you've grown
Few more years to go,
Don't let the hurdle fall
So be the girl you loved,
Be the girl you loved

I'll wait
So show me why you're strong
Ignore everybody else,
We're alone now
I'll wait
So show me why you're strong
Ignore everybody else,
We're alone now

Suddenly, I'm hit
Is this darkness of the dawn?
And your friends are gone
And your friends won't come
So show me where you fit
So show me where you fit

I'll wait
So show me why you're strong
Ignore everybody else,
We're alone now (We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
I'll wait (We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
I'll wait (We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)

Suddenly, I'm hit
Is this darkness of the dawn?
And your friends are gone
And your friends won't come
So show me where you fit
So show me where you fit 
I really really hope that if any of you out there ever feel totally alone, even if there are physically loads of people around you or you feel almost surrounded by darkness, that you can show YOURSELF why YOU are strong. Ignore all the anger. The stress, the worry. Ignore all the people and look inside yourself.
 

Wednesday 30 October 2013

Too Well Dressed to be Stressed


Hello lovelies sorry haven't posted in a while, have been really busy with school and work and stuff:( but I figured as its my half term I cant spend every minute of every day studying, so this is a little break from that:)

 Sometimes I think we all have those days were everything maybe just gets a little bit too much. Whether its parents that just nag a bit too much, school work has heaped up on you, or your friends are pissing you off or ALL of the above, sometimes we need to take a really deep breath and think to yourself: stop.

 if you are sat there thinking that you never seem to see other people having really bad days, it doesn't mean they don't have them! I can guarantee you that every single person on this planet has experienced stress else they are not human!
We can ALL feel...
 
 

 So all you really need to do is remember that stress can overpower you and go from a little weight on your shoulders, to over controlling your whole life. Don't stress or worry over the things in life that you cant change- focus on the things that you can.

 
 so here's one more little thought for today, if you do all these things, your life will be peachy:)
 
live every day to the full and try to avoid letting stress overcome your life- let stress be your friend and be at peace with it. If you are feeling down or as though everything in life has suddenly become too much, sit down and think of one positive thing that's happened to you today (and if you cant think of anything, quite literally the fact that you are here in this life for another day is good enough). Smile as often as possible; it is no rumour that laughing is good for you, and true beauty comes with a smile.



Tuesday 22 October 2013

20 things about me:)

Hi there my lovlies hope you are well nearly half term!!!:D
So today I thought Id do a post about myself so you can maybe get to know me a bit better:)

1. Im a total worrier! I wish I wasn't but I cant seem to help it
 
2. I was going to be called Honeysuckle....
 
3. I am really determined to be fluent in another language
 
4. I suffer from anxiety and low self esteem
 
5. I am an impulsive spender- I have never been good at saving for anything
 
6. Music is my escape from everything- it instantly cheers me up
 
7. Always hated Olives- makes me think I'm eating an eyeball
 
8. I was once in a band called the Pink Rocky Roads- we had one rehearsal which turned into a tweenies' marathon
 
9. I still suck my thumb. Don't judge me.
 
10. I think busking is the coolest thing- every time I pass people jamming out on the street i just want to marry them
 
11. I have been to Greece three times and the most recent time I hit my chin on a climbing frame and had a swollen black chin for the rest of the two week holiday
 
12. I have a massive fear of death
 
13. Form every boxing day, I have a countdown to the next Christmas
 
14. When I was 4 my goal in life was to grow my fringe out (achieved at the age of 10..)
 
15. I have never seen any of the Toy Stories
 
16. I will literally spill my heart out to anyone who will listen
 
17. I have been camping every year of my life
 
18. I think loneliness is the most painful thing
 
19. Thought of eating fish makes me feel sick but I really enjoy quality time fishing with my dad
 
20. I believe in fate and destiny -things happen for a jolly good reason
 
so there we are:) hope you have a beautiful day full of chocolate and giggles
 

Saturday 19 October 2013

Autumn Wishlist 2013

Hi beauties, So here are 8 things that are already on my Christmas list :D some music, jewellery, makeup and clothes- hope you see something you like- might want to add it to yours!:)

This gorgeous matte nail varnish from TopShop is simple and elegant, perfect for an autumn look to tone down and add simplicity to an outfit. 
£5- Fog Grey


I really love this bra as the colour is bright and cheerful which eliminates post-summer blues. Although autumn fashion usually involves a lot of darker hues, why not wear some bright underwear to feel beautiful underneath?
-£20 Urban Outfitters
 
 
 
Next up is the new album from the gorgeous Eliza Doolittle- lots of love for this star, she is a true inspiration and a huge style icon. Her new album is an absolute must!

This premium Rhinestone flower headband is perfect for an autumn evening look. It can smarten up an outfit and all a little sparkle and class to a look.
- £40 Urban Outfitters

This cute beaded collar blouse is really cute and looks really flattering with dark jeans or tucked in to a skater skirt. I just love the nautical stripes- this is a must for winter!
-£42 Urban Outfitters



Up next is this insanely cool pastel Penny Board. I love these so much, great means of transport or if you just want to look really cool;) My friend Jack introduced me to these sick boards and he's giving me a couple of lessons before I get one so I don't look like a total idiot;)


I really like this pretty filigree bag pendant necklace, adding a little cuteness to a simple look.
-£14 Urban Outfitters





Finally we've got a stunning lipstick from the beautiful Bobbi Brown collection- October is the time to switch your coral peaches and pale pinks to much richer berries and plums.
-Dessert Plum £19.00
 
Whats on your Autumnal wishlist?
 
 

Monday 14 October 2013

He who angers you conquers you

Pouring gasoline on fire and throwing some water will not work. If you STOP pouring gasoline then throwing water, that may help. Anger is not caused by other people, it is an angry persons imagination working over time.

So I don't want this post to stress you out even more than life might be stressing you out already, I merely want it to help some of you who, like I, might suffer from anger problems, mind stress and/or a quick temper.







                                                                                                                                                                                    Have you ever felt like your head is literally about to explode because something might have pissed you off in the morning say, and then every little thing that happens throughout that day seems to irritate you and build up inside you, until the point where you have no option to get it out one way or another?

Some people do this violently or verbally, but lashing out at others that are merely in your way or even trying to help you is only going to make thing worse. Others release the anger physically by going on a run, a bike ride or even a session with a punching bag. For me? None of these really helped as I tried them all but never seemed to be able to release all my anger. I often go for runs as it does help a lot to clear my head, but never fully rids the anger. I feel sometimes that I have so much inside me that need to get out, that its impossible to let any of it go and so it just builds up even more. In these cases it has lead to breakdowns, fainting and even mild depression. You feel like you are stuck inside your head and its almost like the sides are closing in on you with no way out.

 
 
Quite often there is no real cause for our anger. We might have woken up in a bad mood or someone has done something to annoy us, but we frequently get ourselves worked up on our own accord. If you are in a bad mood, on your period or just feeling down, then say to yourself that you are going to just maybe keep quite and not let things others around you may be saying aggravate you. I can guarantee you that this way, your anger wont be able to build up inside you as there will be nothing to add to it. You will also notice that the bad mood/bad day, will pass much quicker in order for you to either find time to be alone, or simply go home and get away from school.
 
If you find some people can irritate you on a regular basis, then you can actually learn from this and think to yourself- do I irritate others like this? and if the answers yes- do something about it. I have often annoyed people in the past but I can assure you (even if I've annoyed one of you reading this and what I'm about to say seems unlikely), that every single time I have tried to make amends. It is something I have always done as I really hate the feeling that someone doesn't want to be around me or is irritated by something I've done. There are always going to be the people that you don't get on with which is fine- we are all humans and personalities naturally clash, but maybe you could try to be civil with someone you know is not particularly keen on you and who knows you might alter their opinion. Opinions can change. You can change. You can change your life in less than a second if you wanted to.
 
If you, like me, get wound up about absolutely minute things that are way out of your control, the only thing to do is let it go. Don't sit there and fume over what you cant change- focus on the aspects of life that you CAN change and I can promise you that this will make an improvement.
 
I really hope that this has helped at least one of you maybe figure out why you get so angery, avoid the anger completely or given you some ideas of how to deal with your anger once you have it.
Have a lovely day, full of smiles and giggles
 

Sunday 13 October 2013

The Bowler Hat

 
 
 
 
Hi my lovelies hope you are having a good weekend:) little post about my new lil' obsession Bowler hats!:') saw one in TopShop while shopping in Bath but thought it wouldn't suit me because I don't look great in hats. Bowler hats however are quite different than most hats so I decided to order one and see what it looked like:) to my surprise I really loved it! It goes with literally all my outfits if they need smartening up or an added spark.
 They look great with dresses too so its not just a one outfit affair!

 Go a little different and try a burgundy one- perfect for a casual summer accessory.

Smarten it up with heels and a clutch for a night out:)
 
There are plenty of other colours if you want something a bit different- try this cute nautical look, stunning for an everyday trip shopping or meal out.
 
If your thinking you might not suit one just order a cheap one on Ebay and see what happens- only one way to find out! Have a gorgeous day
 

Not-so-sunny Sunday

Pic of the day: let the sunshine on your face:) (when there's a gap in the rain...<3)
Quote of the day: Nothing is impossible; the word itself says I'm Possible! -Audrey Hepburn <3


 Thought of the day: we are most alive when we're in love <3


Colour of the day: this deep orange/red looks really good this season and goes with nearly autumn     looks. Brings out a bit of colour as the sun disappears.
 Outfit of the day:) oversized jumpers not only keep you snug as winter draws in;) but are also very flattering with skinny jeans or leggings to contrast.


 I hope you have a lovely weekend- they go so fast:(( enjoy every second<3